The cards

Tarot card is something that my parents disslike but then something they disslike is something that make me wanna know more about. I went to a old lady that was looking like a real old lady that known everything.

Sure it cost some to get time with her but then money isn't something that I have to little off. This was an adventure for me and was awesome. Even that she was looking at me as she draw card by card.

Something in wasn't making her to happy but I paid her to tell me everything good some bad. She talked about my past, my parents, my present and it was exacly as it was. She also said that my parents haven't told me the hole story about what is going on around me atm and that wasn't something I haven't got a feeling off anyway.

My future was a bit that she seems to be worried about. She couldn't really say it was good or bad, but that I will have diffrent roads to take depending on what I choose to do. I will meet four guys that want me to follow them over the sea, they will make me follow them even if I choose it or not. They don't want me harm, but it will change my life.

This will not happen today but soon. My parents will not agree to this and will try to stop it, if you choose to follow the road my parents want me to go it will end up in a totaly diffrent path. Both are good but to choose one over the other will be hard. I should think of my choice before take the path.

One path will make me cut off from my parents, I will have a free will and get a new family that will make sure I will be okay. It will be a adventure itself.

The other path will make me boundto my parents and I will live after thier rules. This path isn't bad in anyway. When I turn 18 years old I will get all the info I needed.

Okay so she maybe will be right maybe she just making it up. But I can say that I do belive some of it. I am 15 years old now and if she is right I will get more questions then answers the next coming years.

But who is this four guys that will come? Will I know who they are when they do show up? What will happen to my parents if I do follow that path? Oh I don't know atm. I do know that this is something I will not tell my parents about...

We going to Spain?

This is David by the way, I like him, but I do miss my room and all my things I have at home. I want to go back home now, sure there is nothing wrong to be here in Germany but still home will always be home. And now my dad was talking about that we are going to Spain. And all I want is to go home to England again. But then I guess it's time to learn Spannish now.

I am so happy that I have it easy to learn german and now spannish.. I am thinking of learning Latin also because that is a interesting thing to know. I am thinking of school myself to a doctor when I grow up so it could be good to know Latin then.

I have to much time to do anything here so why not learn spannish and latin while I having boring anyway?

Anna

I meet a girl and Anna was her name. She was all the things my parents was against. Dark, evil and more a animal then human but she was fun. I must add that I haven't got to many friends and more enemies then I can count atm, but I do add my friends here because is all that matters.

When I'm school I have the ability to make more kids pissed off then happy to see me, I don't know why. I end up in 2-3 fights per day and atm I starting to get really good at them. To hit and win the fights. The girls try to be mean to me and the guys trying to kick and hit me, but I don't care and they all loose.

I meet Anna when I was out one day and she wasn't a person that wanted to fight and she was more like me and enjoyed the fights just to get a chance to kick back. We was talking about how nice it was to feel something break. Okay I am not that wierd as it sounds atm but yeah what can I say. To win a fight rules.

Party Time

Party time! My parents have invited thier friends over for a party. I guess that it's around 40 people that comming. They even bought me a new dress, they wanted me to wear a pink and yellow one. OMG no... So after a long yes-no chat I got a green one. I like dark clothes but they wanted me to have a color on me that wasn't black, so then it was green that would be the color.

My mum have fixed so much food it could get hole africa to stop starving, and it was just for this party. I guess that we will have leftovers for many days after this.

I meet a lot of friends to my parents I never seen and they haven't seen me before, but everyone seems to know about me. The feeling I got was that all where there to see me, not to talk to me and soo but to see me. I was feeling like an art exhibition for some reason.

Why was they there to see me, what have I missed this time. Comments I heard was "Oh, so this is Maria", "Finnaly I have seen her", "She is exacly as I supose she would be", "This girl will make a good expression on the elders"...

Elders who? what? I feel so out of the loop atm. What are they talking about.

I find my parents and asked them and they know what all was talking about but they was saying it wasn't something I had to care about atm, in time I would know.

Okay... Should I be scared?

Broken nose

I am still in Germany and no I am not converting my blog to german... But I can say that I have no problems with understand what they saying over here. I even getting use to walk on stone floor. But I am happy that this place have internet and technologic so I am still feeling like a human. I would die If I would stay here whitout my laptop.

I am still going in shool here and have got in trouble as always. There was 4 guys that was going to fight me because I wasn't like them, but it was okey, the guys here isn't that hard as they look. I got a broken nose but they looked worse then me. I am happy that I heal fast. My parents wasn't to have to tell my teachers that this was the "first" time I had done something like this and it would never happen again, bla bla bla, yeah they wasn't happy. But they getting good to thell this story now.

David and me has been finding ghost casles and houses to hang out in to get some times away from the real world and I am happy to have him here. He do understand how it can be to be diffrent.

Laura

One evening there was a meeting at our home, my parents told me to stay at my room and I was not allowed downstairs. Yeah this is something that do happen very often. They have thier "business meeting" 2-3 times per month and I am never supose to be there and will probably never get to hear what they do talking about.

This time a woman that said her name was Laura walk up to my room and asked what I was doing. I was at that time just reading a book, Robinson, William E. with the title: Spirit slate writing and kindred phenomena. She was suprised I was reading this kind of books but for me it's just something I read because I like it. She sat down on my bed and we was talking about what I liked and what I was thinking of the occult and magic that people saying exist or not.

She was also a beliver and we was sitting there and enjoying the others company and in a way we was feeling we known the other in a better way then just two that just meet.

After a while she looked at me and said she should go down again, she said also that I should be careful with what information I do say to diffrent people. And maybe shouldn't say to much of the things I know to my parents, just to be on the safe side.

When she stand up and walked back down I was wondering why, it was not like it all was true.. or was it? And why shouldn't I tell my parents? There is something in what and how she was saying it that made me start wondering about it all. What do she know that I don't know?

Germany travel

Burg Kriebstein, Germany.. the place to be? Yeah maybe.. I have been learning german because my parents tell me we going there to stay for 3 month and if I'm going to go to school there it could be good to know the way around it and not just be a stupid english person visiting germany..

We got a big place to stay in and it's not to bad. But they do live in a bit diffrent ways then we do. They don't dink as much tea as we but it's okay. They have no problems to understand me so that is all good. There computer class is way to easy for me, what are they doing...

Anyway got a new friend here. He is wierd like me and are not like all the other kids. We was having a good time walking around in the town. His name was David and was born here. I got to know much of the german history and it was fun to hear about it while eating ice cream. My parents was out most of the days and the school wasn't to hard and the days wasn't to long.

Much of this town was old and stone buildings. But the feeling that the spirits was there and we was scaring eachother with ghost stories so it was a crazy feeling. David want to come and visit England and I hope that could be arrange, I want to show him my town.

Btw.. Candy.. There is good candy here...