Short but not stupid

I can't understand why people can't see me as who I am. I am short for my age and maybe look younger but that's how I am and someday they sayI will be long as my age, but that I have to wait for. At the moment I look more 12 then 16 but it dosn't make my brain be that age. I have a better IQ then most of my classmates but it dosn't help me get a date.

Not that I really have a problem to look young, it's easy too look innocent and a 12 years old girl in school uniform can get out of many problems. More then a 16 years old girl would. So I am happy with who I am. I am special.

Whispering

There was a strange old man visit my parents today. He was I would say an old vise man like the one u see in old movies from tribes or something... He was wearing some old dark robe and was talking in a foreign languages I don't know. I was sitting in the stair and looked at them. I guess they had no clue I was spying on them but something told me it had something to do with me.

But then my parents do know strange people. But they was looking at my way and was whispering. I wish I would know about what. He was there for 3 hours standing in the living room and wasn't doing anything but talking to my parents all the time. After this time they was going back to english and talked about how nice the weather was and after 5min he left the house. As they moved out from the living room I manage to sneak up to my room and into bed.

When my parents come up and open the door I pretend to sleep. My mum whispers to my dad:
- Do you really think it's true?
And he answer:
- We have to wait and see...

They closed the door after them and went down again.

Now I wondering what is true.. what will happen.. when? I was to tired to worry about it then and went to sleep...

My friend Lilly

My friend that I have worked hard on to keep contact with is Lilly we have been growing up as her parents is like mine.. it's all about work.. The interesting is that even that we moves a lot we still find eachother and meet up time to time. I guess that Lilly is one of the things I planning to keep with me for the rest of my life.

She is smart and have the same intrest as me. We even have a secret letter system so we can write letters in code and then can talk about everything. She has 2 brothers and it's not always she wanna tell them everything. They are 2 and 4 years older then her and they can be a pain time to time.

Lilly is planning to become a cop when she crows up. She has always been the one breaking the rules our parents added to the list of what to do or not to do. But when she is going to be an adult she is going to be a cop, that is what she saying anyway.

I want to be a doctor or a science.. I like to help out.. and can stand blood.. I like to use machines and computers. I even have 2 computers at home and a laptop. I was thinking of getting myself a new fresh laptop with more memory so i can play more games, listen to more music and write in my blogs more. Maybe could be something..

Anyway time to write a letter to Lilly.. where ever she is today...

My Mum

My mum has always been a working woman but have always had time for me.. To make me breakfast and fix clean clothes and so..

She working at a science office and are a manager of some sort, she is like a small boss over 20 other ppl. I have been at her work 2 times and it was a diffrent place to be in.

They have a lab 7 floors under the main door there everything is steel and white. It's clean and almost like a hospital.

Last time I was there I got a chance to try to be a doctor and help them take sample on white rats. They said the rats wasnt in any danger at all and they looked okay. We was taking samples of my blood too and looked at it in a big machine and I could see my cells. That was cool.

I remember that I have been there some other times also but I was to small to understand it I guess, I was thinking it was a scary place to be at but that could just be the look of it that is really close to a hospital.

I have never really been sick in my life and have what I know never been in to a real hospital. My dad working as a science in this place so he is always under the city and my mum is on the 15th floor. When I have been sick I have always had my dad that fix that.

I was small when I was born, almost to small so my first months I was living in one of the labs where my parents work. But after that I have been okey. I know I am looking younger then my age and that can be a pain time to time but atm I have learn to live with it.

School is school

We moved again.. it's like the 12 times in 2 years, still in the same country but yeah it's not easy to make friends. I haven't got to many of them anyway and today I am not really trying to make any new.. We will just move again soon.

All my life my mum and dad has been working with there jobs and they say it's because of thier job that we are moving but I don't really belive it's just that. I guess that the fight I have been in when I was in school was also a bit of the blame. But then who knows.

I'm Maria

I am Maria and are born in UK. I am 15 years old and are not like others. I have a diffrent past and a diffrent future then normal people. But then we can discuss what normal is. I am born under the cresent moon and for some this is an importent information.

I am the only child and my parents had got the information that they couldn't get and childs so when I was born they called me thier miracle and they never said no to me when it come to what i need or want. Thats is both good and bad, when I first started in school I was thinking this was a normal thing but I couldn't get all I wanted there.

But I get all I want from my parents so I'm happy. I have my toys and computers and there is not much I can't get if I ask for it.

I have always been special.. haven't I ?

As times goes by and I grow slowley up I have always had the feeling that I am special.. I am not like the other kids. I don't know why but most of the kids has been affraid of me, okay maybe not affraid but the do keep thier distance from me and not to many have been wanted to fight with me. Not that I do search for it...

My mum has been overprotected and always told me if you feel you have trouble coming come talk to me and I will make it all go away. When I was younger she was my hero. I was a kid noone could hurt or do anything to because I had my mum that always would protect me. But hey, lets face it I am not a kid anymore.