Party Time

Party time! My parents have invited thier friends over for a party. I guess that it's around 40 people that comming. They even bought me a new dress, they wanted me to wear a pink and yellow one. OMG no... So after a long yes-no chat I got a green one. I like dark clothes but they wanted me to have a color on me that wasn't black, so then it was green that would be the color.

My mum have fixed so much food it could get hole africa to stop starving, and it was just for this party. I guess that we will have leftovers for many days after this.

I meet a lot of friends to my parents I never seen and they haven't seen me before, but everyone seems to know about me. The feeling I got was that all where there to see me, not to talk to me and soo but to see me. I was feeling like an art exhibition for some reason.

Why was they there to see me, what have I missed this time. Comments I heard was "Oh, so this is Maria", "Finnaly I have seen her", "She is exacly as I supose she would be", "This girl will make a good expression on the elders"...

Elders who? what? I feel so out of the loop atm. What are they talking about.

I find my parents and asked them and they know what all was talking about but they was saying it wasn't something I had to care about atm, in time I would know.

Okay... Should I be scared?

Broken nose

I am still in Germany and no I am not converting my blog to german... But I can say that I have no problems with understand what they saying over here. I even getting use to walk on stone floor. But I am happy that this place have internet and technologic so I am still feeling like a human. I would die If I would stay here whitout my laptop.

I am still going in shool here and have got in trouble as always. There was 4 guys that was going to fight me because I wasn't like them, but it was okey, the guys here isn't that hard as they look. I got a broken nose but they looked worse then me. I am happy that I heal fast. My parents wasn't to have to tell my teachers that this was the "first" time I had done something like this and it would never happen again, bla bla bla, yeah they wasn't happy. But they getting good to thell this story now.

David and me has been finding ghost casles and houses to hang out in to get some times away from the real world and I am happy to have him here. He do understand how it can be to be diffrent.

Laura

One evening there was a meeting at our home, my parents told me to stay at my room and I was not allowed downstairs. Yeah this is something that do happen very often. They have thier "business meeting" 2-3 times per month and I am never supose to be there and will probably never get to hear what they do talking about.

This time a woman that said her name was Laura walk up to my room and asked what I was doing. I was at that time just reading a book, Robinson, William E. with the title: Spirit slate writing and kindred phenomena. She was suprised I was reading this kind of books but for me it's just something I read because I like it. She sat down on my bed and we was talking about what I liked and what I was thinking of the occult and magic that people saying exist or not.

She was also a beliver and we was sitting there and enjoying the others company and in a way we was feeling we known the other in a better way then just two that just meet.

After a while she looked at me and said she should go down again, she said also that I should be careful with what information I do say to diffrent people. And maybe shouldn't say to much of the things I know to my parents, just to be on the safe side.

When she stand up and walked back down I was wondering why, it was not like it all was true.. or was it? And why shouldn't I tell my parents? There is something in what and how she was saying it that made me start wondering about it all. What do she know that I don't know?

Germany travel

Burg Kriebstein, Germany.. the place to be? Yeah maybe.. I have been learning german because my parents tell me we going there to stay for 3 month and if I'm going to go to school there it could be good to know the way around it and not just be a stupid english person visiting germany..

We got a big place to stay in and it's not to bad. But they do live in a bit diffrent ways then we do. They don't dink as much tea as we but it's okay. They have no problems to understand me so that is all good. There computer class is way to easy for me, what are they doing...

Anyway got a new friend here. He is wierd like me and are not like all the other kids. We was having a good time walking around in the town. His name was David and was born here. I got to know much of the german history and it was fun to hear about it while eating ice cream. My parents was out most of the days and the school wasn't to hard and the days wasn't to long.

Much of this town was old and stone buildings. But the feeling that the spirits was there and we was scaring eachother with ghost stories so it was a crazy feeling. David want to come and visit England and I hope that could be arrange, I want to show him my town.

Btw.. Candy.. There is good candy here...

Short but not stupid

I can't understand why people can't see me as who I am. I am short for my age and maybe look younger but that's how I am and someday they sayI will be long as my age, but that I have to wait for. At the moment I look more 12 then 16 but it dosn't make my brain be that age. I have a better IQ then most of my classmates but it dosn't help me get a date.

Not that I really have a problem to look young, it's easy too look innocent and a 12 years old girl in school uniform can get out of many problems. More then a 16 years old girl would. So I am happy with who I am. I am special.

Whispering

There was a strange old man visit my parents today. He was I would say an old vise man like the one u see in old movies from tribes or something... He was wearing some old dark robe and was talking in a foreign languages I don't know. I was sitting in the stair and looked at them. I guess they had no clue I was spying on them but something told me it had something to do with me.

But then my parents do know strange people. But they was looking at my way and was whispering. I wish I would know about what. He was there for 3 hours standing in the living room and wasn't doing anything but talking to my parents all the time. After this time they was going back to english and talked about how nice the weather was and after 5min he left the house. As they moved out from the living room I manage to sneak up to my room and into bed.

When my parents come up and open the door I pretend to sleep. My mum whispers to my dad:
- Do you really think it's true?
And he answer:
- We have to wait and see...

They closed the door after them and went down again.

Now I wondering what is true.. what will happen.. when? I was to tired to worry about it then and went to sleep...

My friend Lilly

My friend that I have worked hard on to keep contact with is Lilly we have been growing up as her parents is like mine.. it's all about work.. The interesting is that even that we moves a lot we still find eachother and meet up time to time. I guess that Lilly is one of the things I planning to keep with me for the rest of my life.

She is smart and have the same intrest as me. We even have a secret letter system so we can write letters in code and then can talk about everything. She has 2 brothers and it's not always she wanna tell them everything. They are 2 and 4 years older then her and they can be a pain time to time.

Lilly is planning to become a cop when she crows up. She has always been the one breaking the rules our parents added to the list of what to do or not to do. But when she is going to be an adult she is going to be a cop, that is what she saying anyway.

I want to be a doctor or a science.. I like to help out.. and can stand blood.. I like to use machines and computers. I even have 2 computers at home and a laptop. I was thinking of getting myself a new fresh laptop with more memory so i can play more games, listen to more music and write in my blogs more. Maybe could be something..

Anyway time to write a letter to Lilly.. where ever she is today...